Posts

Dream: Seek and Find

Image
Last night I dreamt we went to the beach. We set up our tent and I sat in my chair while my husband went off with two friends. A friend texted me two times but I never got to read the message. I only saw part of one and knew it was urgent and important but I sat there in my chair. First I was worried and then I was angry because my husband wasn’t back yet. He never returned until it was time to leave. When he came back he let me know they were helping others. Then I found myself surrounded with three friends. We were worshipping but I couldn’t focus because, my heart wasn’t in it, I knew I hadn’t read those messages yet. Then my friend next to me asked what was wrong and I told her. I was filling guilty that I wanted to read those messages rather than worship. She told me to just read them. I woke up as I began to read the messages. INTERPRETATION: The Lord is calling us out of what was into something brand new with Him. This new thing will be revealed only when we truly search for Him...
Post a Comment
Read more

How You Truly Feel…Is Ok

Image
The MOST IMPORTANT thing I want to teach my preschoolers this year is this…we all have feelings/emotions and those feelings/emotions are not always “good” ones. I want them to know they don’t have to pretend they are happy, excited, confident, or hopeful if they aren’t truly feeling that way. We can feel sad, angry, embarrassed, silly, shy, grumpy, disappointed, frustrated…AND THAT’S OK. It’s ok to need a time out to work through those emotions. We have a red bean bag in our classroom for this purpose…to provide a space to calm down, really think about those feelings, and let it all out. I encourage time outs…it’s not a negative thing! We yell on that bean bag, we cry on that bean bag, we cover our face on that bean bag, and sometimes we even sleep on that bean bag…AND THAT’S OK. It’s healthy to get it out…to not get it out is no bueno. Most importantly…WE TALK ABOUT IT. When we get up from that bean bag, we are ready to move forward understanding why we felt the way we did. So why do ...
Post a Comment
Read more

Preparing a Heart of Worship

Image
  As I walked the path last night, the Spirit was stirring in me that it was time to prepare. Prepare what? A place to gather…and tonight my darling led us in building an alter of worship.  Landry’s prayer  ♥️ …as parents, Jesus is the greatest gift we can give our children. Not church, not tradition, not our faith—JESUS. He is their only way to eternal life.  I’m going to be honest with you…I barely get my kids to a “church”. I love the church but my priority is being the church for my children to see…being intentional with my relationship with God first, my family next, and then others.  My husband and I have a great responsibility to shepherd our children. I used to feel guilty because tradition looks like gathering in a building on Sunday morning in your Sunday best and then once again on Wednesday. I’m saying farewell to tradition.  God says in Hebrews 10 “You should not stay away from the church meetings, as some are doing. But you should meet togethe...
Post a Comment
Read more

The Crushing

Image
  Crushing: A Godly sorrow that worketh repentance. “I will make them want to know me. They will know that I am the Lord. They will be my people, and I will be their God. This is because they will return to me with their whole hearts.” ‭‭ Jeremiah‬ ‭24:7‬ ‭ICB‬‬ Rather you are entering a crushing, you are in the midst of a crushing, or if you just came out of a crushing it’s important to know that what the enemy means for evil; God is able to turn it right back around for the spiritual good of you and others when we truly love Him. The prophet Jeremiah had a very weighty message to carry to the unfaithful kings, priest, prophets and people of Judah when their hearts wavered. He exposed how they exchanged their love for the one true God for idol worship. He called them unfaithful adulterers. He warned them of the correction that would come if they didn’t repent, destroy their idols, and turn back. A correction that would crush their sin of idol worship to turn their hearts back to G...
Post a Comment
Read more

The Calling

Image
Called: God works for the good of those who love Him and are called. There are God’s people and then there are God’s people who are anointed, chosen, and set apart with a special work because there are nations to be reached before Jesus returns. Like Jeremiah, the Lord does not expect one to already have the words or know how. He’s just asking for a willing spirit empowered by the Holy Spirit. —A spirit that will obey —A spirit that will go —A spirit that will speak —A spirit that will trust God is a God of vision and dreams. He has mysteries He desires to share with anyone who is willing to seek Him wholeheartedly. God is looking for boldness in this hour. He is looking for one who will stand and declare a weighty word, “thus says the Lord”. One who will fear God not man. Is this you? Know God has made you a strong city, a pillar, a bronze wall so you will be able to stand against the evil one. Weapons will form, but they will not defeat you. The Lord is with you. Go speak His message...
Post a Comment
Read more

A Fight Bigger than a Freakin’ Bag of Chips

Image
A bag of chips...that’s your biggest fight? I’m sitting in a marriage Sunday school class, the leader shares how the biggest fight him and his wife ever had was over deciding what bag of potato chips they should buy, the couples laughed, but for me I sat still in my pain believing there was absolutely no hope for me or my marriage. That was one of many illusions that led me to decades of wearing a mask, believing that I had to hide the pain, pretend my struggle was a freakin’ bag of chips instead of the emotional abuse, porn, and adultery that was truly invading my marriage...living oppressed in fear, guilt, and shame. I honestly believed if I prayed enough, served enough, attended church enough that it all would magically be ok and a bag of chips would be my new normal. But here’s the thing...had the bag of chips became my new normal I don’t believe I would have experienced God in the captivity that I have. It was only in the brokenness, the pain, the heartache, the mess and chaos tha...
Post a Comment
Read more

There’s Purpose in the Thorn

Image
I’ve been walking since this morning, same socks, same shoes and it wasn’t until tonight when I went to prayer walk a different path that I felt a sticker poking me in my sock. On my second lap, I stopped a short second, felt inside my sock, hoping to find the thorn poking me and nothing... even though I knew it was there. In my mind I had two thoughts: 1.) Stop, cut my walk short, and sit on the park bench to find the stinking thorn. Or 2.) Press in, finish my walk with God, and then find the thorn. As I’m debating in my mind what to do, that’s when God showed me how this past year, when my season changed drastically, causing discomfort...I pressed in. Just as Paul was given a thorn, I believe to keep him centered, God gave me a thorn...and maybe you are thinking of your thorn right now. I pleaded like Paul, but God did not remove the thorn...and there’s purpose in that. There’s purpose in the thorn. The thorn was not meant to stop me but advance me in my God given purpose. I didn’t s...
Post a Comment
Read more