Seeking God, Not Pinterest

So I’m just going to put this out there in hopes it brings perspective, discernment, and wisdom as we expose how the enemy invites us to seek Pinterest instead of God.

Yes, you read that correctly.

This past weekend I was ready to ask my husband to leave...not because I had sought God but because I had sought Pinterest and its many signs and post this past month for answers.

Here’s the thing...not one post could really relate to what’s truly going on in my marriage, my husband, or me but boy how the devil can twist, lie, and convince you otherwise.

Let’s back up.

My husband has been struggling...physically, emotionally, spiritually. It’s no secret he will tell you. He knows he’s in a spiritual battle that can’t be won carnally.

Then there’s me...Holy Spirit Jr. that wants to take it personally and try to fix everything for him as I’m still recovering from co-dependency and my own junk.

The devil knows this.

Here’s the thing...I can’t stop his chronic pain, I can’t force his ex wife to co-parent, I can’t fix the frustration that comes from his trials in this season because it’s not mine to fix.

Letting go of control is not easy for this empath. 

I feel his emotions as if they are my own. His mood becomes mine. I’m extremely sensitive as I want to see healing and deliverance for him that throws me into bouts of tears. 

Sometimes, when I’m not seeking self help but God, I’m consumed with rage as I pray against the curses spoken over him, me, and our marriage.

And that’s just it!

My job is not to fix it but as his wife I’m simply to be here for him...to continue to hold his hand in the good and bad as he prays and seeks God to lead him through HIS wilderness that is not mine.

More importantly my job is to seek God on our behalf, not Pinterest or man because all circumstances are different.

My job is to war in the spirit realm.

It’s in the seeking our spirits are trained for war and our minds for the battle!

Ps...I’m replacing Pinterest with seeking God.