It’s Only a Season

I’ve been struggling lately with having the desire to want to do anything...I guess you could say I’m battling a spirit of lethargy.

Lethargy: a lack of energy and enthusiasm.

No desire to sit at the table with God, to garden, to raise chickens, to parent, or to wife (if that’s a thing 🙃).

Heck...I haven’t blogged in God knows when—and blogging and sharing is something I once loved to do with all the above!

I have to force myself to adult.

The alarm goes off, I wake the kids, feed them breakfast, and take them to school. The entire time I’m thinking—I just want to get back home and climb back in bed.

Some days I do...some days I don’t.

Today I got back in bed and took care of our bills.

A friend texted and invited me to the park...I wanted to say no but I’m thankful I said yes! I would have missed a blessing.

I went on to force myself to exercise, to study Ezra 3, to clean out the chicken coop, to walk the dog, wash the dishes, and even be still to write this blog post.

I share all this to say:

—You are not alone.

—This is only a season.

—You will exit strengthened.

The wilderness is never fun but it’s in the wilderness we are humbled and tested as God sees what’s truly in our hearts.

It’s in the wilderness our hearts are positioned.

With God...it’s not about performance but all about the positioning of the heart.

I’m asking God to position my heart and give me a spirit to do as I bind this spirit of lethargy in Jesus name.